Bryan canceled rehearsal tonight which I am soooo thankful for, as last night I fell asleep on the floor because I was so tired.

I missed the 01:02:03 04/05/06 thing because I was fast asleep by that time. Oh well. It's not THAT big of a deal.... and what would I have really done, anyway?

So, I had that medical thing today. It was kind of fun, actually. I got to spend a lot of time by myself laying down, I got to pretend I was sick... both fun things for me.

I'm going over to my grandma's in a couple of minutes to have dinner with her and mom and Jen. I'm excited.

Wow.... I am STILL really tired. At least I get to sleep in tomorrow (by "sleep in" I mean until 9:30). Hopefully this will make me... better.

I really, REALLY love chocolate. And I can't wait until this summer when I move scaffolding with Jessie, sing duets with Dan, and Allison and Ali and I can be friends and hang out WITHOUT studying for theatre history! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !

I am so f-ing tired. I was tired to begin with yesterday and in such a bad mood at work and then I had to do a LOT in rehearsal... and then we were up until 5:30 studying for this stupid test. :( I was so.... sad. And it was impossible for me to memorize the dates. EVERYTHING else I was good on... but not the dates. Unfortunately there were like 12 questions on dates. I was reading the first question like it was in a different language because I was just.... so tired. The essays were good and I know for sure the other multi-part objective question was 100% correct... but man... those dates killed me.

After that I was supposed to have an exam in earth dynamics, but he moved it to Thursday which is good and bad.

I finally got to hear Kayce (the other most beautiful person I've ever known in real life) sing today in studio. Two hours of sleep and she was still amazing.

Here are some pictures from Griffin from the post showcase party.

Lauren was trying to open a bottle of wine and she was having some problems...


K-Fed and Britney all cleaned up


Me and Dan.... allowed to be friends again.

We have rehearsal tonight where hopefully more cuts will be made and then tomorrow morning I have to go become Joanne Presley. Hahaha... it's gonna suck so bad.

I need a nap.

So, two things have happened since my last post of importance:
1. I got thrown a major class registering curve ball because the sign language class (during the time I NEEDED to take it) is already closed... so I registered for the 5:30-7:10 class, which could have a million different conflicts.
2. I found out that I had been cast at Porthouse in JCS this summer and that the email was sent last Wednesday, but I had no idea.

So BOOOO and YAY!

Oh, and studying for theatre history last night was a hot mess. I'm really confident on the commedia/servant/king stag question, confident enough to BS the melodrama question and confident on the romanticism aspect of the Hernani question (but not so much on the Hernani part because that play SUCKS), but the objectives? Objectives WHO? It's bad. We were doing so well last night... and then.... I don't know what happened. So NOW we're gonna have to stay up again all night tonight. This is really...sad. For me.

EDITOk, this important thing also happened:
The link to Erin's Barbie article from the NY Times

So, I DID go to see "Barbie, Live in Fairytopia" starring one of my good friends, Erin, in Columbus last night and it was so great! I mean, I know it was a children's show, and I was definitely looking really weird to be the only sort-of there without a kid, but Erin did soooooo well and the costumes were so beautiful, the set was amazing, ALL the cast members sounded incredible... it was just really nice and I am so happy for her to be part of such a huge thing. And to be playing Barbie... how awesome is THAT? It was their first "real" day of performances (they did some previews before yesterday, though) and her family was there and they took me out to eat at Max and Erma's. They were all so nice. Erin has such an incredible life. She said "It's so hectic though!" (She has a ton of interviews and stuff to do ALL the time) but I asked her if there was anything else she would rather be doing, and of course she said no. It was so nice to see her.

I'm at the rec center right now, as I feel like I will never have internet in my apartment again. We are having a theatre history study session tonight at 8, and I'm going to do some research online for a while. Our test is on TUESDAY (noooooooo!) and although I have studied some already, it is nowhere near as much as I SHOULD have by now. I knew this would happen. I wish she wouldn't have put the test the first day back from break.... sometimes I think she is actually trying to kill us.

We're also going to have Violet rehearsal pretty much everyday until the show opens.... although Bryan, I have to tell you that on April 11th, I am going to have to be very late. You'll understand later.

Man, I kind of need to stay up all night tonight to study for this test. I REALLY don't want to be up as late as we were last time the night before, so I figure I'll just do it tonight, if possible. Tomorrow is also my class registration day, one of the happiest days of the semester for me. :) (Because I am a nerd.)

MOST of our servers this morning were an hour late because they "forgot" about the time change. Last night while I was reading my Brockett I thought about "forgetting" also, but I figured a lot of people would be doing it anyway, and it would be bad if EVERYONE did.

Time to research romanticism and Hernani. :/

This update will say nothing because I want to go see Barbie live at 5pm and kind of need to leave... now. Bye. :)

Spring has arrived... for now. It's definitely 70 degrees outside (WHY couldn't it have been 70 degrees all weekend in new york?) and we're expecting the huge storm that tore the great plains apart. I know that in the summer Ohio is just as nice on the warm days as California... but it's not at all because California doesn't have rain. California has unlimited nice summer/all year long days. I miss that.

I have been such a bad PITNB reader this last week. I always feel like I lose touch with the world when I don't have internet access..

...as it's still down in my room so I'm using the eagle's landing "lab" which is only open a couple of hours a day.

My parents are FINALLY getting our taxes done. I was about to... do them myself... which is just a really bad idea. I never did get tax stuff from central casting so I am HOPING I just didn't make enough there to warrant getting any kind of tax papers... but I don't know. I've tried calling them a million times but they're almost impossible to reach.

April 18th is the big moving day for my parents to Huron. God, that's so weird. I can't wait to see the place.... but man... it's gonna be weird...

/sad.

Sometimes I have these really strange flashbacks that make me think of the Ben Folds Five song "Fair."
Every couple nights or so
You know you pop into my dreams
I just can’t get rid of you
Like you got rid of me
Ohh, but I send my best
Cause God knows you’ve seen my worst

I know I shouldn't... I shouldn't even THINK about it, let alone post it.... especially because I AM happy now and I'm doing really well... but it is STILL way harder than everyone said it would be.

Oh, and also, based on recent events, I think I am now officially scared to get involved with anyone ever again. In case you were wondering.

I need some tea. Despite my lack of internet I'll try to post tomorrow from a new location...

I'm a really patient person and I put up with a loooot of crap and (usually) keep my mouth shut. But there are some times when I really fear that I am not going to be able to wait for my life to begin.

I can't believe I could come back to Ohio after living in LA... but I also don't think I realized just how hard it was to leave a city until I revisited a huge city. You know, when you're living here you can kind of forget that other places exist, just to make yourself happy. But if you GO to these places you end up with a problem. A crying on the M60 heading towards the airport problem.

I'm really glad I DID go back to school... but mainly because I don't think I could have delt with my life at the time and I really needed the support of my family and friends. I like my major and I like my classes (even the stupid LERs) but man do I hate it here. And people kept offering me places to sublet in NYC over the summer (and one was only for 5 weeks/$500 on the UPPER WEST SIDE!!!) but I'm kind of afraid if I did it... I wouldn't come back. I mean, I'd HAVE to... but how could I? I am just soooo sick of this awful college transitional waiting period. I want to DO something... and what I want to do CANNOT be done in Ohio.

Anyway, my trip was awesome. I spent most of the time alone, which sounds kind of scary, but it wasn't. If you spend a significant amount of alone time while traveling, you start to feel like you live there. I figured out all the subways lingo (I'd have to be an idiot not to) and it was just really great.

Saturday I had lunch with Jon and Griffin and then I went to see Spelling Bee with Patrick. We got $25 standing room tickets and the show was sooo funny. I loved it. After that I met Alison at the times square OG for dinner (everything is $5 more than it is here and even $4 more than it was in LA. They also have auto gratuity on EVERY check.) since I was still lugging my suitcase around, we headed back to her apartment on Staten Island not too long after that. The next day I got up at 7:30 to get to central park to watch her come through the finish line of her half-marathon. I spent the rest of the day basically alone (I did go to Colony with John Moauro), walking around, doing a LITTLE shopping (a skirt) and I saw the Producers (which Hunter Foster was in, so that was cool). That night I had dinner with Alison again and then went to bed.

Monday I met Dan, Lauren, Amber and Marissa in the village for lunch. Dan showed us where he worked and took us to the Magnolia bakery (for some of those famous cupcakes, cousin). I am IN LOVE with the village and need to live there.... right now. I saw a lot of people walking dogs there. Anyway, after that we went to Dan's apartment in Harlem and then to the showcase. Everyone did really well and MOST of the people there got totally drunk off of the free wine that I was made to pour for everyone. I also talked to TK about Porthouse... which maybe I'll reveal the details of at a later time. That night it was too late to go back to Staten island so I spent the night at Adam Howard's apartment. In the morning I went back to Alison's, and then back to Manhattan where I had lunch at the Chicken Bar on 8th and 45th and won the lottery for Dirty Rotten Scoundrels tickets, saw Julia Roberts, went BACK to the Chicken Bar an hour later for dinner with Patrick and then saw what was maybe the best show I've ever seen in my life. Joanna Gleason (the reason I wanted to do theatre), Norbert Leo Butz, Rachel York... it was like... the best thing ever. And since we won the lottery, we were right in the front in the box seats. Everyone in that cast is ridiculously talented and ridiculously beautiful and it was during that show and the subway ride home that I said to myself "You HAVE to do this."

Wednesday I just hung out with Brandon at his apartment in Harlem (which was soooo nice) and then took the bus back to the airport. It was so sad. I want to go back... right now. Especially because David Schwimmer and Paul Rudd are starring in plays at neighboring theatres and uh.... I love them.

Oh, and no, Chris Kateff never called me and he sucks. :)

Today I am working a double, tomorrow and Saturday dinner shifts and Sunday I work in the morning. I hope to make some money. I had to go to the Falls library to use the computers because the internet is still down at my apartment and my last table stayed forever, so I couldn't drive back to Kent between my shifts without having to turn around and drive right back. It's so beautiful outside today...

And Weathervane is doing The Last Five Years in November...

And if I need to say anything more than that last sentence than you don't know me well enough.

I missed my blog. I'll update more often now that I'm back. :)

I love NY.

I can't write too much... but man.

Accidentally taking the N train into Brooklyn instead of Whitehall.... fun.

Tomorrow is MORE fun!!! Woooooooo!!!

(I fell in the shower today--actually FELL, too, not just slipping and catching myself--and hit the soap thing with the side of my body and I think there's going to be a huge bruise because it hurts sooooo bad.)

DAMN INTERNET EXPLORER!!! It erased my post...

Ok, I have no time to write it again. And I'm leaving on Saturday morning and probably won't have time to update tomorrow (I have to work all day to make up the money I wanted to make tonight because Bryan said we had to have rehearsal :( ) and I'm sure when I'm in NYC I'll have SOME time to update... but not tons... so... BYE!!

This picture of LA makes me so sad. It's so beautiful... gross air and all.

I just keep picking healthy cities.

SO! Today is Alison's Birthday!!!! She's 27 today (which is unbelievable) and has already run the NYC marathon and on Sunday will have completed I believe her fourth half marathon! 5 years ago I bet she never would have thought that possible... but look at her now, world!!! Amazing!!!

I am SO EXCITED about my trip this weekend. I am totally taking some form of mass transportation BY MYSELF from LaGuardia to the Ferry station. Alison gave me directions last night on what buses/trains to take... I also have the option (if I get too scared) to taking a cab all the way, but I think I'll be ok. I mean, hello, I did live in LA for a year. And... you know... when I took the subway THERE I took it by myself. Granted, the subway system in LA is the equivalent to the bus system in Portage County (ie, it has a very limited route and hardly anyone uses it) but STILL. I am sooooo excited about mass transportation. Jeez, what is my problem?? I'm not excited about passing the statue of liberty every day, or (hopefully) seeing a show, or just generally being in new york... I'm excited about the SUBWAY.

NERD.

So, I called the Linksys people last night to see if they could help me get internet back in my room, and they said to buy a new wire... which I can't do until after spring break is over and rent is paid for. Dammit. I'm gonna have to keep using the computer lab for quite some time. I THINK there is still something wrong with the internet, though, because Tara had to call the time warner people last night about hers... so maybe, hopefully, they'll somehow fix everything.

In just a few minutes my sister and I are meeting up to go look at an apartment in indian valley because we want to live there sooooo bad next year. I don't care if we don't have "the best" of neighbors... I am SURE they can't be worse than the neighbors I have now who break the windows in my car!! Plus, it is SO CHEAP to live there, the apartments are NICE, and it's still really close to Kent and they allow kitties.... or should I say "kitty", as Rule #1 is "No more than one cat."

Later today I have to become Joanne Presley and pretend I have horrible stomach problems and then I have rehearsal tonight. I ALREADY got up at 8am this morning to do laundry...

Last night I watched "Sideways" which was interesting because, as we all know, I am a wine connoisseur (who doesn't drink wine and thinks everything about it is gross. But I KNOW a lot...) but other than that it was.... okay... I guess. It actually made me really mad at times and THEN made me REALLY question what actually happened at a certain Burning Man event last year based on the shady homecomings of someone I used to know....

Guilt can tear a man's soul apart...

Ok, I guess I need to go meet Jen, now. I'm gonna try to pick up a shift tomorrow night (I HAVE to work because I can't go to NYC with this little money) so I don't know if I'll be able to update, but I'll try to squeeze it in.