So, as I never have anything to do, I get bored. A lot. I decided to take some cell phone pictures to show you guys what I do all day long.


This is the view from my parents' room


This is my new significant other, Lipton extra sweet iced tea.


Here's... you know... 85% of my face one day.


This is my sister and the plea she has for all the world to understand... that she is not a lesbian.


The cat did this for probably 20 hours a day when it was ridiculously hot.


I like to see what the world looks like from her point of view.


I sleep until noon. I was fake sleeping in this picture, though.


Here's me with my only form of communication anymore... the computer.


Pink kitten heels!


I'm not smiling about the casting!


My copy of "Rosencrantz and Gildenstern are Dead"... it's like... what am I supposed to DO with this??

I got my hair cut today. I brought back the bangs (as you may be able to tell) but I LOVE them. For some reason I slept for like 12 hours last night. I was sooooo tired and I have no idea why. It's not like I DID anything.

Tomorrow is the scripps national spelling bee!!! I am SOOOOO excited!

Man, I am even more excited about Porthouse now than I was 20 minutes ago.... because not only will I be living with Allison... but ALI AND JESSIE, TOO!!!!!!!!

I don't think I could possibly have better roomies... this is so awesome.

I went to pick up my sister last night and they replaced our air conditioner this morning. We went out to eat at Damon's for dinner and then had ice cream from Cold Stone. Yay.

I think it's supposed to cool down tomorrow. Maybe I'll go to the pool at some point. There have been like ten thousand children there every day up till now, though, so we'll see.

Me = boring.

I don't get upset often. I mean, it really takes a lot to ACTUALLY upset me. So, when I DO get upset, I think I feel the need to "punish" whoever made me that way by talking about it ad nauseam... and hoping that he or she will hear this at some point, realize that they are one of the FEW people who were able to make me feel this way, and regret their actions.

This never works... because sadly enough, the world does not revolve around me.

I also try to make everyone else feel what *I* feel so that they'll hate them, too.

Basically, what I'm saying here is that I need to grow up.

Or that people need to stop being assholes to me. One or the other.

If one thing is true, it's that I have been 100% full of angst as of late.

Please... excuse me....

If you want to waste 15 minutes (I timed it), I filled out 4 surveys. Thanks to Dix Huit, Cleric and John Popa for providing them

So, it was finally hot enough to turn on the air conditioning... and it's totally broken. And it's so damn hot in here.... milk was a bad choice.

Since it's a holiday weekend, we're thinking it won't be able to get fixed until TUESDAY which sucks so much because tomorrow is going to be even hotter. Me and kitty just keep laying down on the floor because we don't know what else to do. It's even worse with the windows open. I'm wearing SHORTS. I only wear shorts in two cases: if I have no other choice (like today) or if I am on my way to a pool or something.

And I'm almost out of green tea.

I got a call from a best buy today to set up an interview... but now I don't even see the point. At the earliest it would be another week before I could start which means I would be submitting my two weeks notice (since I am leaving for Porthouse on the 25th) after working there for one week. That's just stupid. I am so mad the OG. I mean, the guy told me I could transfer... if he would have just told me the truth when I first talked to him I would have applied for other jobs here earlier.

I wish this apartment complex had a workout room.

I would really like to get some GOOD news sometime soon... you know, to hear something other than "Sorry--you're not gonna be playing your dream role this time", "The air conditioning is broken", "We're already over staffed" or the one I know is coming any day now, "I'm in a new relationship."

Can't someone tell me that I've won a million dollars? Or that they want to take me on an all expenses paid trip to Disney World? Or Lipton would like to give me a year's supply of extra sweet iced tea? Or even that someone would like to transcribe the song "In This Room" for me?

I also want realistic things to happen, along with the unlikely ones listed above.

So, over a month after my audition, two weeks after my callback, one week after it was down to me and 2 others, 3 days after it was down to me and ONE other I finally found out...

I didn't get cast.

I really don't need to tell you how disappointed I am.

She said it had nothing to do with my talent. She said my voice was perfect for the role and that she was sure I'd play it some day. She said "And I'm sure you'll get good roles up at KSU this year"--- yeah, right, like THAT'S ever happened. She said it was totally based on my AGE, because she went with the older girl. She's about 10 years older, and obviously there's no comparison.... and just IM me if you want to know more.

I called Jon. He is PISSED.

In other news, I picked up some ribs today for my mom and felt odd walking through the supermarket holding a big slab of meat.

"Jaded Era" is really good. Kira and I did "Guys and Dolls" together and it ended up being her last year at Kent, which is too bad because she was hella cool.

I really miss my friends. Like... a lot. I wish it were a month from now or that I had something to DO here to keep me away from the computer. I have really good intuition... I'm not an idiot. I can tell something is going on with... someone I used to know...

I used to think I was totally ok being alone all the time (and I don't mean in the "single" type way... I mean in the absence of other people PERIOD type way). I have realized lately that this is not true. I need people. WHY I thought I was ok being alone all the time, I don't know.... I mean, I like people so much and I get along with EVERYONE. I miss the people.

I think invisibility cloaks are a REALLY bad idea. Can you imagine in like 50 years when they perfect the technology and people are just sneaking into houses or spying on people... well, I mean, spying on them WORSE than the government is spying on us, now? Pandemonium, I tells ya.

I am trapped in Kent because of tornado warnings and I had to go the ksu library computer lab... and I am STUPID.

Note to self: Ignore all profoundly risky instincts. They are NOT GOOD IDEAS.

Cedar Point was a lot of fun today. The weather was PERFECT and since half the world doesn't realize the park is open every day yet, there was hardly anyone there. The only real LINE (and it was only 30 minutes) we had to wait in was for the top thrill dragster (which I finally decided I was brave enough to go on) and then, when we were about to get on, it broke and we didn't get to ride. The Millennium force was closed too, which SUCKED SO BAD so I was kind of disappointed. To make up for it, we rode the Magnum 8 times. That was tons of fun, but now I have "Magnum Thigh"; a condition where the safety bar of the Magnum hits in the same place so many times that it hurts you really bad the next day. I also have "Raptor neck," "Wind face," and... sunburn. (Not a lot, though, since I was tan to the extreme.) We also got trapped on the Raptor for about 20 minutes. Luckily we got to RIDE it before it too broke.

I think I am allergic to the sea. This is really bad, as I love the sea and kind of want to live near it for ever. I never had any problems at school or growing up, but when I moved to LA it started and it's been happening up here as well: stuffy nose, watery eyes, lots of sneezing... I thought it was just the smog in LA but MAYBE I was wrong.

My whole body hurts from today. I feel like I've been beaten up.

So, Taylor won AI. I wasn't surprised... I don't think ANYONE was surprised. I actually liked this finale more than I have any of the other years... and what the HELL was wrong with Meatloaf??? I was so uncomfortable during that song! He was so ridiculously far off pitch (and I actually thought he was about to walk off stage in the middle of the song) that I had to ask my dad if there was anything medically wrong with the guy. And now, I find out he has Parkinson's so... uh... basically, I'm a jerk. Mary J Blige and that Elliot guy were great. I really liked it when Prince came out, though... what a cool surprise. And then... there was Clay. And I think he had cheek implants... and his hair looked ridiculous... and that guy's reaction was priceless... but still, Clay can really sing.

I have to take my sister back to kent tomorrow, so I'll be kind of around for a while. I mean... sort of. Most of my friends are away right now, anyway so.... this message is kind of useless.