Well...

I'm still waiting to see if I got cast at Porthouse (SEVERAL of my friends have gotten calls... I just want to know either way, I don't even care which way, now). I really want this (and I would be SO GOOD in JCS...) but I just want to KNOW, now.

I'm ALSO still waiting for the internet to start working in MY room again (it's working in Tara's... why not mine?!?!)

I hate.... waiting. And I have a headache. And I do NOT feel prepared for the theatre history test, despite it's being two weeks away. I also fear that I won't be off book for "Violet" when we need to be and.... ugh.

I need some tea or something.

Oh, and I'm ALSO still waiting for freaking Chris Kateff to write me back!!!!!

Internet is down at my apartment (NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!), and it has been since yesterday at like 1pm. I hate those internet people... whoever they are.

Callbacks yesterday went really well!! Most of my friends (and myself) were asked to dance again after the original dance/singing part. We all did really well which was... good. I hope we're ALL cast! :)

I watched "Wedding Crashers" yesterday. It definitely WAS funny, but not as funny as I expected it to be based on what everyone said. But don't get me wrong... it was still really funny.

I closed lunch today and it was only ok. The day went sooooooo slowly. I also hurt my toe and it feels like it did when I've broken it. I hope it isn't broken.

I finally got my replacement phone today. It's only been almost 6 months since it broke. I went through and saved some old pictures I had on it from before that I had uploaded to the internet. Not ALL of them... for obvious reasons... and only one with Jim in it. I just really liked the picture.

It made me sad going through them, though. Mostly because I miss Simon SO MUCH and because I miss LA. I had a bunch of pictures of the beach and this rainbow and palm trees... but if I knew I was going to miss it so much I would have taken pictures of EVERYTHING. Johnnie's, Rudy's Barbershop, the view from my apartment(s), the street, freeway overpasses, my favorite shops on Melrose, Diddy Reese, Pedro, random houses.... anything I could. You know how sometimes your stomach sinks and burns? Yeah... that's definitely happening to me right now. But... I can't CRY in the computer lab... that would be just.... pathetic. Especially because I AM happy now... and I have so many friends here and I love them all so much... but still. I just... miss it. A lot.

I have this sandwhich that I kind of have to eat soon but I am soooo not hungry anymore.

Alright! And now Violet rehearsal!

My second shift started out okay last night.... but then one of my tables took both credit card receipts so I didn't get a tip from them (I was sooooo sad... it was a $65 check!) and then I had the STUPIDEST people I've ever encountered in my entire life at my last table. I had to explain every single thing to them... and I'm not talking just like what one entree had in it or something, I'm talking EVERYTHING. What the cheese WAS (not type of cheese... what it WAS), I went over the soups THREE TIMES, every salad ingredient, I had to tell the woman at LEAST 5 times about our two salad dressings, what angel hair is... EVERYTHING. It was mostly the woman (who, incidentally, had implants), but the guy, who was probably about 10 years older than her (I'm guessing she was about 35ish), and was apparently trying to get this woman into bed, started acting like he was completely AS clueless to everything as she was. They tipped me 10.5%. I wasn't surprised. They were such MORONS...

In fact, they were SO stupid, that now I am considering selling my eggs (hey, I might never have children) because I am NOT a moron, and one less person in the world who doesn't have moron genes can't hurt. I'm so scared for the human race.

Today's shift was hardly any better, but it went relatively quickly. Sadly, the average tip was about $3 (people were so cheap today... and it was def. mullet central in the OG), but somehow I managed to make $50 before I walked out of the door.

After that I went pretty much directly to "Violet" rehearsal, and then I went home and finally watched "Fever Pitch" (I've wanted to see it for about a year, now). It was pretty good. It didn't hold my interest as much as I would have liked, but I really like the Red Sox and I really like Drew Barrymore, and the ending was pretty good, so I enjoyed it. I also rented "Wedding Crashers" which I am excited to see.

Tomorrow I have to work in the morning and then are the JCS callbacks. I am definitely going to do the following things tomorrow:
A. Wake up really early and stretch
B. Go to work and try to be an extra and if I can't, then request to be in a section where I'll get replaced earliest
C. Go home, change, stretch more and go to callbacks
D. Wear my "Jesus is My Homeboy" shirt as a gimmick to get cast

Griffin said MAB told him it was more or less going to be an "edgy movement" call rather than a dance call, which is good. THAT I can do. I think I'll try to wake up at 8am tomorrow to work out... it probably won't happen, but a girl can dream. I think it'd be good to do before I'm gallivanting around in a leotard.

It's funny... you change your myspace default picture and you get a million comments and profile views.

And BY THE WAY.... doesn't ANYONE remember my LATimes article???
A. I made a huge deal out of it
B. I linked to it on here
C. I have a link that is ON my myspace profile but people keep asking where it is and why and how and... WHERE have you people been??
The article

Yes, it's still embarrassing.

So, I'm going back to work in a couple minutes to try to pick up a shift. I am SURE someone will let me as it is St. Patrick's Day and all... I'm sure there's plenty of people who would rather be out having fun than working. I am ALSO one of those people, but when they don't schedule you any night shifts and you have to have off for 5 days in a week, you kind of have to... work as much as you can WHILE you can.

This morning at work wasn't too bad. My last table was this old lady and she was soooo adorable I almost cried. Really.

Oh, I got called back for Jesus Christ Superstar on Sunday. I know it's MAB choreography... but really, the dance call can't be THAT hard, right?? I'm kind of nervous because the callbacks start at 6pm but I have to work in the morning... and I'm just really afraid I won't have enough time to get ready. I SHOULD be out of there no later than 4, but I want a LOT of time to stretch. WHO KNOWS what she'll have us do. Granted this is definitely not A Chorus Line, but the dance call for THAT (which was the last MAB choreographed show I auditioned for) was really hard. Double pirouette into arabesque, anyone?? Please?? I'd really, really like to do this show (especially to round out my religiously-themed shows... I've already got "Godspell" and "Children of Eden") so I want to do really well.

And I can sing rock and/or roll. No proobbbbbblem...

Ok, I need to get going. Happy Alisa's Heritage Day, everyone!!

I had my Porthouse audition today and... well... it could have been worse. I was SO NERVOUS because of my monologue that when Mel played my note I thought, for some reason, I was singing my second song first, and ended up not exactly singing the first couple of words on any kind of... pitch. It was like... speaking. For some reason. Luckily the thought "What on earth are you DOING!?!?!?!" popped into my head and I was able to jump on board the song... then in my second song, at this one point it was like my voice dissolved into a million little pieces. I don't think they noticed ANY of this, though. Definitely not the sing-speaking thing, and although EvB certainly did pop his head up on my "dissolved" note, TK was looking on in what can only be described as awe. I THINK that was passed as an acting choice rather than a... thing that has never happened to me before. My monologue was... fine... I was just sooooo nervous. I turned into shaky hands mcgee for a while. After the audition was over TK said "REALLY great audition, Alisa!!!!" which was sincere rather than... sarcastic. Oh, and everyone looooved my dress. So, I mean... it was not a personal best, but hopefully I don't think things were THAT obvious, either so.... there you go.

After that I went to see "Jar the Floor", which I LOVED. It was so funny and moving and although some funny technical things went wrong, it was still really great. All five girls did a really nice job. I was verrrrrry impressed with Adrienne.

So, today I talked to Brandon and he said this to me "I gave Ben Vereen a haircut on Monday." I don't think it completely registered at first. I was like "Are you serious? (Long pause) WAIT. ARE YOU SERIOUS!?!?!?!?!??!" Ben's wife is in Pajama game, and liked Brandon's hair and asked him to cut Ben's. Ben Vereen gave Brandon a $100 tip (I said I wouldn't have kept the money---I would have asked for a dance or song instead) and then.... AND THEN.... invited him to a party next week at LIZA MINELLI'S HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!

He's going to it.

I don't EVEN know what to say about that.

My parents got the apartment in Huron!!! Yay! I'm excited.... it's gonna be really weird at first, for me... and probably really sad... but it apparently has an amazing view and is right on the lake so I think I'll be able to get over the whole "ohhhhh, this is where my relationship began" thing. Hopefully, anyway.

I'm really hoping to work a double tomorrow, despite it being the day of My People (aka the Irish, aka St. Patrick's Day). Almost everyone I know is getting drunk... not ME... although I hope the people at my tables do and then tip me a lot. Maybe I'll wake up early (hahahahahaha!!!!!!) and go to get a green bagel somewhere. That would be fun.

Man, I am sooooo glad Porthouse auditions are over. I'll probably use that monologue again in the future, but it is SO NICE to not have to worry about it again for a while.

THE IDES OF MARCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today I was driving home from work and I saw this animal trotting leisurely across the road aways in front of me. It's legs were too long to be a cat or a small dog, but it was too small to be a BIG dog... and for some reason the next guess I had was that this animal must be a kangaroo. Not like one of those big kangaroos, but a little one... and then I was just like "What is WRONG with me?" It ended up being a red fox, which is so WEIRD since I've only ever seen one once before, and they're usually so reclusive and tend to run from place to place.... not trot.

But not as weird as it would have been if it was a kangaroo, I suppose.

I just took a survey on belting. Woo.

We had our read through for act 1 of "Violet" last night. It went alright, sort of. I mean, everyone was pretty tired since we didn't start until 10pm... and I think a lot of people have other things on their minds right now. For ME, it's memorizing my monologue for tomorrow's audition. I've pretty much got it but I feel like there's some specific words that I tend to forget or paraphrase, and I really can't do that with this particular monologue. I'm also REALLY afraid that I'll be too nervous to "get into it" during the audition. It is definitely NOT one of those monologues where the words speak for themselves. In fact, when I was reading it the first time I was definitely like "HUH??" It's kind of like my "slotted spoons" line from ITW.... you can hear it a million times but not really get it.

We read through "Fashion" yesterday, which was better than "Ticket of Leave Man" and "Hernani", at least. Dr. Bank was kind of lecturing us about the fact that we haven't started a new revolution and overthrown the government yet, yesterday. I mean, she ACTUALLY was kind of doing that. After class I said "Ok, we're meeting at 5 for the read through and then at 6 for Revolution Club."

I really wanted cake yesterday but then John said "Think about next year's showcase Alisa! Do you still want that cake??" and, well, I did, but instead I drank some green tea and pretended it was cake.

It was not the same.

A lot of times when I'm driving home from work I start thinking about Westwood... and I think I miss Westwood the most out of things I miss in LA. Right now, at least. Especially with being in another college town... just a far less cool one. I miss being able to walk places, and the movie theatres, and the stores and specialty shops... and DIDDY REESE.... I really hope NYC is just as awesome as LA.... otherwise I'll end up moving back there for sure.

I AM going to update today. Nothing has been happening...

It rained today. Wooo.

Last night we tried to read "Ticket of Leave Man" which was impossible to understand. With thirty pages left I stopped everyone and asked if anyone understood anything that had happened thus far. They hadn't, and we assumed that if we DID start to understand, it wouldn't matter anyway, as we didn't understand more than half of what happened. So we gave up and gossiped instead.

Because THAT is what we DO...

Oh my gosh, so yesterday I had to go see the opera performed by the music department... and I feel like I am going to have to start using drugs to be able to forget this opera. It was unbearably terrible. Thank GOD Griffin was there so we could support eachother through the ordeal. I don't think the opera itself is bad... I mean, HELLO, it's Mozart so it CAN'T be bad. The performers all had lovely voices.... but that doesn't matter if you can't hear them at all (in the third row) nor can understand a word they're saying. Worst. Direction. Ever. It was like watching a high school perform it. The director was on stage during the TWO INTERMISSIONS (!!!) with a drill in his hand, changing the sets. And THEN he actually would walk offstage, come back on a couple of steps and POINT at the orchestra conductor to start the next act. So professional. The best parts of the show were Shaina and this girl, Alexandra who actually sang AND acted. What a concept!

Wow, I am... mad about that.

I am so tired. I have to go to rehearsal soon. And then, I swear, I am going to work out. I'm going to have to start going in the mornings again because of "Violet." Eh.... sleeping was nice while it lasted.

God, look at me. I'm not working out AGAIN... but I should be. I said to myself "Oh, you don't have to today because you walked a lot at work." But I still should, anyway. But now I can't, because IF we are studying tonight (I don't know whether or not this is happening, yet) we'll probably be doing that around 9 and I wouldn't have enough time.... and... well, I suck.

So! Last night I went to see the Student Dance Festival. The dance concerts are usually my favorite part of the KSU season. I think this is because it's something I can't REALLY do but appreciate SO much. Plus... I generally "get" the choreography. Anyway, it was really fun. Otto is AMAZING!! I had a lot of friends in it this year, too, and of course they all did a great job... and I'm not lying... they're just good dancers. Part of me says to myself "Alisa. Next year is your last year. Despite the absurdity of this thought, maybe you should audition." I kind of want to, but I also DO realize the absurdity of the thought. I think it'd be really fun, though, and really the ONLY chance I would ever get to do something like that.... so maybe if I can work on some stuff I'll think about it.

I finally watched the "Rent" movie last night. It was better than the PLAY... but I had some big problems with it. First off, man is Roger UGLY. Second, when he's singing "Your Eyes" to Mimi as she's dying, he looks like such a creepy bastard. And THEN she dies... and wakes up... and she's TOTALLY fine. It felt, to ME, like it was all a joke they were playing on Roger. Especially when Maureen comes over and says so nonchalantly "Her fever's breaking." I laughed a LOT. Angel and Collins were def my favorite part. They were not only adorable but reeeeaaaaaaallly good. The Joanne was good, too... and who can really replace Anthony Rapp as Mark? No one. After I started hating it, I really stopping paying attention to "Rent," and since I was too young when it came out to understand a lot of stuff, I never noticed until I saw it NOW how terrible and sad everything is. I never even realized Roger was afraid to start things with Mimi because of the AIDS. What was WRONG with me when I was 14 that I didn't realize that?

I also think Maureen is supposed to be really bad at slam poetry. It's either that, or slam poetry is SO STUPID to begin with that you can't help but be awful at it.

I am trying to find a monologue for next week's Porthouse auditions and it is really, really hard.

I was in the smoking section today at work. It sucks in there. There's the obvious fact that there's smoke everywhere, which is bad to begin with, but it's also the furthest away from dish AND for some reason it was like 100 degrees in the building today. HOWEVER, you sell a LOT of alcohol in the smoking section and for some reason... people leave better tips. In my first two tables I made $18.... and they were both parties of 2! Infact, ALL my tables were parties of 2, and I made like $65 on a lunch. AND we were slow! If it only weren't for the smoke, I'd want to be there every shift. However, I don't want lung cancer... nor do I want to ruin my vocal chords... so I'll just deal with not making as much as I could.

Haven and Christine were at the OG today. They weren't at one of my tables (why NOT, you guys??) but it was fun to see them. They asked me why they boil lobsters while they're still alive. I was like "Uh... this isn't Red Lobster," but then proceeded to tell them about how fish do not have a sense of self, so perhaps it had something to do with that. Probably not... but I took a guess.

Tomorrow I am going to work and then going to see the Opera through the music department. No other words for that.

Wow, today was weird. I didn't get to work out because I actually didn't have time. Normally if I don't work out it's because I'm too lazy to... not today!

Theatre History was really... intense... this morning. Dr. Bank was talking about Romanticism and a priori and Kant and the noumenal and phenomenal worlds... and I think she must be really passionate about this subject because she talked for like an HOUR and we're only doing ONE play from that era. I thought it was really interesting, though... especially because SHE thought it was so interesting.

After class, Allison and I went on our amazingly fun road trip up to Sandusky to audition for Cedar Point. I think both auditions went well. They had me sing "I Will Survive" and they took Allison's measurements.... we both stayed to dance. Everyone there was really nice, too. It was SO WEIRD seeing the park in it's off season, though! Kind of depressing...

After that we went to the Sandusky Fazoli's and then drove back to Kent, where I immediately had to start rehearsal for Violet. We just went through some music tonight. The guy playing Flick is really good! I'm really happy about that.

As soon as I got done with rehearsal I had to jump back in my car to drive to south akron to have post-dinner at the IHOP with my family. My parents might have found an apartment in Huron. I really hope they get it because it sounded great.

The second I got back to kent I had to return two DVDs at the family video... and then the rec center closed. At least I danced a little today. That's gotta count for something.

Tomorrow is work and then student dance festival! Woooooo!!!

Look, it's Erin!!! Hopefully we'll get to see her in the opening show of the tour in Columbus... if not, we have to wait until like JULY until they come through Cleveland.

So, we read through "Hernani" yesterday. First of all, it took THREE HOURS. Second, it was THE WORST PLAY EVER. Seriously, Ryan and Cleric said it was good... said it was "one of [their] favorites"... well, it was CRAP. Yolanda summed it up best with "Nothing happened for 100 pages and then they all died."

But it did remind me of Lord of the Rings... except not THAT much because LOTR doesn't suck.

Ok, so after that I had another late night workout (something I will be doing as soon as I finish this post, also). This morning I had theatre advising for next semester. TK was happy I had everything planned out, we had a nice little chat and both almost cried.

She asked if I was seeing anyone and I said no, not now... and then was just like "But I feel like, for the first time in my life, I don't NEED to be. This is the first time I've been single in 8 years and I really couldn't feel better about myself." I think that's really surprising... I just didn't ever imagine myself being okay with this. And not just "okay"... REALLY GOOD. I'm sure sometime I'll want to date someone again... but it just doesn't seem important right now.

And I really like that.

I watched "The 40 Year Old Virgin" and "Waiting" today... both were hi-larious. If any of my Sterling friends remember what it was like the first time you saw "Office Space" and thought to yourself "Oh my God, this is my LIFE" (I almost turned around in the parking lot of work to drive away the night after I saw that movie once), "Waiting" is my CURRENT life. Well, without the food tampering... as far as I know. I really hope that scared people into being nicer to their servers, though. One of the girls was just like "I can't believe someone could be so rude to a stranger!" Ohhhhh... but they can. People are ASSHOLES, and I really feel like there are some people on earth who go out to eat JUST so they can be rude to someone who can't do anything about it. Those people... are assholes. As I said.

Tomorrow Allison and I are taking a road trip up to Sandusky to audition for Cedar Point! It sounds like soooooo much fun to work there...

So, I'm doing this medical acting thing for Ohio University in a couple of weeks where I have to pretend I'm "Joanne Presley" who suffers from abdominal pain. Although I have to claim that I have diarrhea 8 to 10 times a day, and memorize all these fake symptoms of my abdominal pain, the most embarrassing part is that "Joanne" is a smoker who is 22 and MARRIED. I can't believe I have to say that I smoke a pack a day. GROSS. I don't think they'll believe that part. My skin is just too non... rubbery.