This update will say nothing because I want to go see Barbie live at 5pm and kind of need to leave... now. Bye. :)

Spring has arrived... for now. It's definitely 70 degrees outside (WHY couldn't it have been 70 degrees all weekend in new york?) and we're expecting the huge storm that tore the great plains apart. I know that in the summer Ohio is just as nice on the warm days as California... but it's not at all because California doesn't have rain. California has unlimited nice summer/all year long days. I miss that.

I have been such a bad PITNB reader this last week. I always feel like I lose touch with the world when I don't have internet access..

...as it's still down in my room so I'm using the eagle's landing "lab" which is only open a couple of hours a day.

My parents are FINALLY getting our taxes done. I was about to... do them myself... which is just a really bad idea. I never did get tax stuff from central casting so I am HOPING I just didn't make enough there to warrant getting any kind of tax papers... but I don't know. I've tried calling them a million times but they're almost impossible to reach.

April 18th is the big moving day for my parents to Huron. God, that's so weird. I can't wait to see the place.... but man... it's gonna be weird...

/sad.

Sometimes I have these really strange flashbacks that make me think of the Ben Folds Five song "Fair."
Every couple nights or so
You know you pop into my dreams
I just can’t get rid of you
Like you got rid of me
Ohh, but I send my best
Cause God knows you’ve seen my worst

I know I shouldn't... I shouldn't even THINK about it, let alone post it.... especially because I AM happy now and I'm doing really well... but it is STILL way harder than everyone said it would be.

Oh, and also, based on recent events, I think I am now officially scared to get involved with anyone ever again. In case you were wondering.

I need some tea. Despite my lack of internet I'll try to post tomorrow from a new location...

I'm a really patient person and I put up with a loooot of crap and (usually) keep my mouth shut. But there are some times when I really fear that I am not going to be able to wait for my life to begin.

I can't believe I could come back to Ohio after living in LA... but I also don't think I realized just how hard it was to leave a city until I revisited a huge city. You know, when you're living here you can kind of forget that other places exist, just to make yourself happy. But if you GO to these places you end up with a problem. A crying on the M60 heading towards the airport problem.

I'm really glad I DID go back to school... but mainly because I don't think I could have delt with my life at the time and I really needed the support of my family and friends. I like my major and I like my classes (even the stupid LERs) but man do I hate it here. And people kept offering me places to sublet in NYC over the summer (and one was only for 5 weeks/$500 on the UPPER WEST SIDE!!!) but I'm kind of afraid if I did it... I wouldn't come back. I mean, I'd HAVE to... but how could I? I am just soooo sick of this awful college transitional waiting period. I want to DO something... and what I want to do CANNOT be done in Ohio.

Anyway, my trip was awesome. I spent most of the time alone, which sounds kind of scary, but it wasn't. If you spend a significant amount of alone time while traveling, you start to feel like you live there. I figured out all the subways lingo (I'd have to be an idiot not to) and it was just really great.

Saturday I had lunch with Jon and Griffin and then I went to see Spelling Bee with Patrick. We got $25 standing room tickets and the show was sooo funny. I loved it. After that I met Alison at the times square OG for dinner (everything is $5 more than it is here and even $4 more than it was in LA. They also have auto gratuity on EVERY check.) since I was still lugging my suitcase around, we headed back to her apartment on Staten Island not too long after that. The next day I got up at 7:30 to get to central park to watch her come through the finish line of her half-marathon. I spent the rest of the day basically alone (I did go to Colony with John Moauro), walking around, doing a LITTLE shopping (a skirt) and I saw the Producers (which Hunter Foster was in, so that was cool). That night I had dinner with Alison again and then went to bed.

Monday I met Dan, Lauren, Amber and Marissa in the village for lunch. Dan showed us where he worked and took us to the Magnolia bakery (for some of those famous cupcakes, cousin). I am IN LOVE with the village and need to live there.... right now. I saw a lot of people walking dogs there. Anyway, after that we went to Dan's apartment in Harlem and then to the showcase. Everyone did really well and MOST of the people there got totally drunk off of the free wine that I was made to pour for everyone. I also talked to TK about Porthouse... which maybe I'll reveal the details of at a later time. That night it was too late to go back to Staten island so I spent the night at Adam Howard's apartment. In the morning I went back to Alison's, and then back to Manhattan where I had lunch at the Chicken Bar on 8th and 45th and won the lottery for Dirty Rotten Scoundrels tickets, saw Julia Roberts, went BACK to the Chicken Bar an hour later for dinner with Patrick and then saw what was maybe the best show I've ever seen in my life. Joanna Gleason (the reason I wanted to do theatre), Norbert Leo Butz, Rachel York... it was like... the best thing ever. And since we won the lottery, we were right in the front in the box seats. Everyone in that cast is ridiculously talented and ridiculously beautiful and it was during that show and the subway ride home that I said to myself "You HAVE to do this."

Wednesday I just hung out with Brandon at his apartment in Harlem (which was soooo nice) and then took the bus back to the airport. It was so sad. I want to go back... right now. Especially because David Schwimmer and Paul Rudd are starring in plays at neighboring theatres and uh.... I love them.

Oh, and no, Chris Kateff never called me and he sucks. :)

Today I am working a double, tomorrow and Saturday dinner shifts and Sunday I work in the morning. I hope to make some money. I had to go to the Falls library to use the computers because the internet is still down at my apartment and my last table stayed forever, so I couldn't drive back to Kent between my shifts without having to turn around and drive right back. It's so beautiful outside today...

And Weathervane is doing The Last Five Years in November...

And if I need to say anything more than that last sentence than you don't know me well enough.

I missed my blog. I'll update more often now that I'm back. :)

I love NY.

I can't write too much... but man.

Accidentally taking the N train into Brooklyn instead of Whitehall.... fun.

Tomorrow is MORE fun!!! Woooooooo!!!

(I fell in the shower today--actually FELL, too, not just slipping and catching myself--and hit the soap thing with the side of my body and I think there's going to be a huge bruise because it hurts sooooo bad.)

DAMN INTERNET EXPLORER!!! It erased my post...

Ok, I have no time to write it again. And I'm leaving on Saturday morning and probably won't have time to update tomorrow (I have to work all day to make up the money I wanted to make tonight because Bryan said we had to have rehearsal :( ) and I'm sure when I'm in NYC I'll have SOME time to update... but not tons... so... BYE!!

This picture of LA makes me so sad. It's so beautiful... gross air and all.

I just keep picking healthy cities.

SO! Today is Alison's Birthday!!!! She's 27 today (which is unbelievable) and has already run the NYC marathon and on Sunday will have completed I believe her fourth half marathon! 5 years ago I bet she never would have thought that possible... but look at her now, world!!! Amazing!!!

I am SO EXCITED about my trip this weekend. I am totally taking some form of mass transportation BY MYSELF from LaGuardia to the Ferry station. Alison gave me directions last night on what buses/trains to take... I also have the option (if I get too scared) to taking a cab all the way, but I think I'll be ok. I mean, hello, I did live in LA for a year. And... you know... when I took the subway THERE I took it by myself. Granted, the subway system in LA is the equivalent to the bus system in Portage County (ie, it has a very limited route and hardly anyone uses it) but STILL. I am sooooo excited about mass transportation. Jeez, what is my problem?? I'm not excited about passing the statue of liberty every day, or (hopefully) seeing a show, or just generally being in new york... I'm excited about the SUBWAY.

NERD.

So, I called the Linksys people last night to see if they could help me get internet back in my room, and they said to buy a new wire... which I can't do until after spring break is over and rent is paid for. Dammit. I'm gonna have to keep using the computer lab for quite some time. I THINK there is still something wrong with the internet, though, because Tara had to call the time warner people last night about hers... so maybe, hopefully, they'll somehow fix everything.

In just a few minutes my sister and I are meeting up to go look at an apartment in indian valley because we want to live there sooooo bad next year. I don't care if we don't have "the best" of neighbors... I am SURE they can't be worse than the neighbors I have now who break the windows in my car!! Plus, it is SO CHEAP to live there, the apartments are NICE, and it's still really close to Kent and they allow kitties.... or should I say "kitty", as Rule #1 is "No more than one cat."

Later today I have to become Joanne Presley and pretend I have horrible stomach problems and then I have rehearsal tonight. I ALREADY got up at 8am this morning to do laundry...

Last night I watched "Sideways" which was interesting because, as we all know, I am a wine connoisseur (who doesn't drink wine and thinks everything about it is gross. But I KNOW a lot...) but other than that it was.... okay... I guess. It actually made me really mad at times and THEN made me REALLY question what actually happened at a certain Burning Man event last year based on the shady homecomings of someone I used to know....

Guilt can tear a man's soul apart...

Ok, I guess I need to go meet Jen, now. I'm gonna try to pick up a shift tomorrow night (I HAVE to work because I can't go to NYC with this little money) so I don't know if I'll be able to update, but I'll try to squeeze it in.

Well...

I'm still waiting to see if I got cast at Porthouse (SEVERAL of my friends have gotten calls... I just want to know either way, I don't even care which way, now). I really want this (and I would be SO GOOD in JCS...) but I just want to KNOW, now.

I'm ALSO still waiting for the internet to start working in MY room again (it's working in Tara's... why not mine?!?!)

I hate.... waiting. And I have a headache. And I do NOT feel prepared for the theatre history test, despite it's being two weeks away. I also fear that I won't be off book for "Violet" when we need to be and.... ugh.

I need some tea or something.

Oh, and I'm ALSO still waiting for freaking Chris Kateff to write me back!!!!!

Internet is down at my apartment (NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!), and it has been since yesterday at like 1pm. I hate those internet people... whoever they are.

Callbacks yesterday went really well!! Most of my friends (and myself) were asked to dance again after the original dance/singing part. We all did really well which was... good. I hope we're ALL cast! :)

I watched "Wedding Crashers" yesterday. It definitely WAS funny, but not as funny as I expected it to be based on what everyone said. But don't get me wrong... it was still really funny.

I closed lunch today and it was only ok. The day went sooooooo slowly. I also hurt my toe and it feels like it did when I've broken it. I hope it isn't broken.

I finally got my replacement phone today. It's only been almost 6 months since it broke. I went through and saved some old pictures I had on it from before that I had uploaded to the internet. Not ALL of them... for obvious reasons... and only one with Jim in it. I just really liked the picture.

It made me sad going through them, though. Mostly because I miss Simon SO MUCH and because I miss LA. I had a bunch of pictures of the beach and this rainbow and palm trees... but if I knew I was going to miss it so much I would have taken pictures of EVERYTHING. Johnnie's, Rudy's Barbershop, the view from my apartment(s), the street, freeway overpasses, my favorite shops on Melrose, Diddy Reese, Pedro, random houses.... anything I could. You know how sometimes your stomach sinks and burns? Yeah... that's definitely happening to me right now. But... I can't CRY in the computer lab... that would be just.... pathetic. Especially because I AM happy now... and I have so many friends here and I love them all so much... but still. I just... miss it. A lot.

I have this sandwhich that I kind of have to eat soon but I am soooo not hungry anymore.

Alright! And now Violet rehearsal!

My second shift started out okay last night.... but then one of my tables took both credit card receipts so I didn't get a tip from them (I was sooooo sad... it was a $65 check!) and then I had the STUPIDEST people I've ever encountered in my entire life at my last table. I had to explain every single thing to them... and I'm not talking just like what one entree had in it or something, I'm talking EVERYTHING. What the cheese WAS (not type of cheese... what it WAS), I went over the soups THREE TIMES, every salad ingredient, I had to tell the woman at LEAST 5 times about our two salad dressings, what angel hair is... EVERYTHING. It was mostly the woman (who, incidentally, had implants), but the guy, who was probably about 10 years older than her (I'm guessing she was about 35ish), and was apparently trying to get this woman into bed, started acting like he was completely AS clueless to everything as she was. They tipped me 10.5%. I wasn't surprised. They were such MORONS...

In fact, they were SO stupid, that now I am considering selling my eggs (hey, I might never have children) because I am NOT a moron, and one less person in the world who doesn't have moron genes can't hurt. I'm so scared for the human race.

Today's shift was hardly any better, but it went relatively quickly. Sadly, the average tip was about $3 (people were so cheap today... and it was def. mullet central in the OG), but somehow I managed to make $50 before I walked out of the door.

After that I went pretty much directly to "Violet" rehearsal, and then I went home and finally watched "Fever Pitch" (I've wanted to see it for about a year, now). It was pretty good. It didn't hold my interest as much as I would have liked, but I really like the Red Sox and I really like Drew Barrymore, and the ending was pretty good, so I enjoyed it. I also rented "Wedding Crashers" which I am excited to see.

Tomorrow I have to work in the morning and then are the JCS callbacks. I am definitely going to do the following things tomorrow:
A. Wake up really early and stretch
B. Go to work and try to be an extra and if I can't, then request to be in a section where I'll get replaced earliest
C. Go home, change, stretch more and go to callbacks
D. Wear my "Jesus is My Homeboy" shirt as a gimmick to get cast

Griffin said MAB told him it was more or less going to be an "edgy movement" call rather than a dance call, which is good. THAT I can do. I think I'll try to wake up at 8am tomorrow to work out... it probably won't happen, but a girl can dream. I think it'd be good to do before I'm gallivanting around in a leotard.

It's funny... you change your myspace default picture and you get a million comments and profile views.

And BY THE WAY.... doesn't ANYONE remember my LATimes article???
A. I made a huge deal out of it
B. I linked to it on here
C. I have a link that is ON my myspace profile but people keep asking where it is and why and how and... WHERE have you people been??
The article

Yes, it's still embarrassing.

So, I'm going back to work in a couple minutes to try to pick up a shift. I am SURE someone will let me as it is St. Patrick's Day and all... I'm sure there's plenty of people who would rather be out having fun than working. I am ALSO one of those people, but when they don't schedule you any night shifts and you have to have off for 5 days in a week, you kind of have to... work as much as you can WHILE you can.

This morning at work wasn't too bad. My last table was this old lady and she was soooo adorable I almost cried. Really.

Oh, I got called back for Jesus Christ Superstar on Sunday. I know it's MAB choreography... but really, the dance call can't be THAT hard, right?? I'm kind of nervous because the callbacks start at 6pm but I have to work in the morning... and I'm just really afraid I won't have enough time to get ready. I SHOULD be out of there no later than 4, but I want a LOT of time to stretch. WHO KNOWS what she'll have us do. Granted this is definitely not A Chorus Line, but the dance call for THAT (which was the last MAB choreographed show I auditioned for) was really hard. Double pirouette into arabesque, anyone?? Please?? I'd really, really like to do this show (especially to round out my religiously-themed shows... I've already got "Godspell" and "Children of Eden") so I want to do really well.

And I can sing rock and/or roll. No proobbbbbblem...

Ok, I need to get going. Happy Alisa's Heritage Day, everyone!!